My Diary

EGO .....

2009-06-22T21:31:00.000-07:00

ego is our biggest enemy i think ........whnever in any relationship we find ourself above all then it occurs n we forget everything .....no matter wrong or right its the ego factor which rules us..... we should always try to think otherwise n always try to place ourselves in the other person's place whenver such situation occurs.... we should be more liberal......... the ego is nothing but a proudiness....we feel ourselvers much superior than we are and then this EGO factor starts ruling us ....once it takes its charge we forget our natural judgement power, our intelligence ........it acts like a hurdle in our progress ...its a negative energy and we must try to overcome it .... its the biggest hurdle in any relationship from very much basic like parents kids.... husband wife.......siblings....friends to our professtional relationships too like couligues n our superiors........
its very much wrong concept that if u take a forwards step n talk to others it would hurt ur image infact whever u do such things u might hv realised tht things become much smoother.......it actually helps us in our task .......relations....there is always an inferiority complex in many people and becos of that they dont ocme forward and talk to u.... those people r not confident and if u take a step frowards towards them they wll be obliged and become ur friend.........
those people whom we think r prody actually r cowards inside bt they rpetend to be superior.... so they think tht people too wll think like they r superior......... but we hv always seen tht those hwo really r great they r down to earth n very much humble........take our PM or EX PRESIDENT Dr. kalam ..........
i m not a philosopher but only felt to pen down this matter since it was disturbing me since ling........

other woman

2008-09-22T23:35:00.000-07:00

i had a fight with my hubby last night ......... reason one of our friend is too much possesive with him and i hv mentioned my strong oppose to it many times earlier too but he has always denied any such relations with her ....... i knw he is not invovled in her since he knows tht she has so many boyfriends ........so he too is playing a game with her .....but to some extent its fine beyond tht it starts disturbing ur spouse .........n i strongly belive tht if anything disturbs ur spouse u shld avoid it.......... she calls him late nights........ sends so many SMSes all day........ i never chk his mobile but the other days i chked n found her sms .....she was mentioning tht he doenst trust her.......... n so on ....it really shaken me........... whn i asked him if he had any sms frm her he denied ........n the thing is i cud not say tht i hv chked ur mobile n i hv found it ........
i really dont understand how to handle this issue since its a very sensitive one.......... i love him so much n i dont wanna hurt him at all.......... hw to react thn? shld i be quiet n just ignore wht is happening? i really dont understand i m confused a lot ..........

building nation

2007-11-28T22:11:00.001-08:00

When last week my friend from UK came here to stay with us for a few days my hubby used to be a bit busy n he would not be able to come home before 11pm ....... this made my friend very much surprised since she said you people dont have family or social life .....see your hubby working so late @ night n comes home when your son is asleep..so how he is able to spend enough time with your son? n what about your family life? why do you people work so hard? we dont work so hard in UK we would leave the office @5pm sharp n would work 35 hours a week strictly........ now it was my turn to be surprised... how can there be so strict timings? and if work is pending n urgent then what? when my hubby was there in UK for few months he too did tell me the same tht @ 5 sharp all his British couligues would leave office and my hubby would stay @ office till he finishes his work..... then next day the British would ask him when did you go home yesterday?? .......... here in India we dont watch the clock all the time n we dont mind spending few more hours to finish our work though.........
Its really strange tht we Indians are so much famous for our INDIAN TIME....... I feel we really dont bother for the time either so we dont mind speding those extra hours @ office n finish the work in time n not pointing out the rule 'to leave @ 5pm' .........
The other reason I see is we are developing country n we have to build our NATION so we have to work a bit hard than those of the western or developed countries....... n we are doing the same no mind its just a very little share of our support build nation isnt it?? its our strength ........ we even dont realise tht we are spending more time than our agreement....... !!!!!!!

Virgina massacre

2007-04-19T22:56:00.000-07:00

It was horrible to see the korian boy Cho Seung-Hui killed the students and teacher s in Verginia....... we all condemn this cruel act....we must!! but why it all happened? what he said in his video after the massacre makes us think of the society, our attitude towards the weaker section of the society........ we are so much in our world and have become selfish that we dont have time to think of those "NAY's .........it is a part of our society and they too have the right to have all those things which we have.......money, comfort, prestige averything but unfrotunately they dont get it, causes may vary from their education to opportunity........a part of our society is far away from the lifestyle which few people able to get.....
what he said in his video "You have vandalized my heart, rape my soul and torched my consience.........I cie for Jesus Christ, to inspire generations of the weak and the defenseless people"...........thats the main stuff.........he is fade up of the imbalance of the society....surely his way to fulfill his desire, to teach lesson for those rich and famous society is wrong.....but its just alarming bell for all of us.......no matter where we leave, in which country we reside....it will happen and can happen anywhere in the world the imbalance of the property and sources gives birth to such acts.........
We too have experienced it last year in Mumbai when they burnt the buses in Mumbai...........it too was anger for the rich and upper class society..........we must be introvert and think for those who are not getting the opportunities and they remain poor.......its our duty to understand them and share our few extra bucks with the poor and weaker society otherwise it will become very much difficult to survive for us too......and the anger and dissatisfaction matter will be so much larger and it will make our life miserable...........
Few of us will say that we have earned the money,prestige and all the stuff with ourselves yes I agree........but if you want to enjoy the fredom and satisfaction you will have too look after those NAYs too if they are happy then and then only they will ignore your happineess and you will be able to enjoy your life fully!!!!!!!!!! That is balancing of the property and opportunities........so whenver you see poor please for your sake and oursake have sympathy for them and spend few bucks for them!!!!!!!!

Earn @ home ?????

2007-04-11T22:49:00.000-07:00

We all know the ads on internet and in news papers Earn from home type. They give you huge amount dreams. But do they really work? I paid one such company. They too disclose in the ads that you will start earning after just you get an account with us .......not a single rupee you will have to pay once you pay our fees. When I paid their fees of some Rs.1250/- I got a CD giving me details of adwords. There I signed in to Commision junction. Then when I wanted to post ads in the adwords by google .......it asked me by bugget! Since then I had an impression that I would not have to pay a single rupee as the company already had said in their ads........Then I called the company person regarding the matter. Then he told that yes you will have to pay for the ad and when somebody clicks on your ad you will get the commission from say ebay or naukari.com or whatever it is. I was stunned cos the adwords asks you your credit card no and it will debit the amlunt from your credit card. As we Indians dont normalyy give our credit card no on net. So my earing @ home this time was a tie tie fish!!!!!!!!!! And I had lost my 1250 + VPP charges!!!!!!!!
Another one pay per clicks stuff...where they assured to post just pay per clks emails everyday.........which i paid 550/-.......they promised me to send atleast 400+ pay email companies, which also was a big scam.........i got only 20+ companies that too paid 00.001 $ !!!!!!!!!!! so overall its all a big big flop show and i was too much nervous and furious of all companies which never feel guilty cheating on us....the biggest thing is we get caught alone........we dont knw who else is there got cheated like us....we are not unite ..thts the biggest advantage the comanies take!!!!! And we even can not go to the consumer court for few hundred rupees n even we dont know their addreses and the people.......so its a biggest scam .....we must alert people if we come to know somebody willing to buy such things on net.......!!!

Rave party

2007-03-22T22:26:00.000-07:00

So much have been written on it that there is no need more to write about it, but i m here to focus on another aspect of the party........why it happens? Are the kids soley responsible for it? or Are we parents too responsible? Who is the main cuprit? We will have to think about it.........when the children are kids we are young and we too behave sometimes like irresponsible persons.......we have late night partis, we have drinks in front of our kids, we smoke in front of them and we are doing many more illegal or 'bad' things before them....we think that they are kids and are unaware of our deeds......yes they are, and many times they even dont understand what we are doing, but their memory is capturing all the things and storing it in a passive memory and when they grow up the storage in their memory recalls.....and they now understand the meaning of your deeds........which you thought they wont understand........now they are getting everything, and they try to make links and understand with their own knowledge, and its the point when they decide what is wrong and what is not.....since they have seen you doing all those things they thinks its right and no harm doing themselves.......and now we as parent think why they are misbehaving? Here we must understand that we are the main cuprit....we didnt teach them good values because we didnt folow them........kids always grwo up looking observing their parents and they are their mentors,guide, idols, their pride....and they think what our parents are doing is always right........so its our responsibility to bring up our kids with good values, morality and and follow them ourselves.......its a contineous process and it doent take place in a day or two...so we must understand one thing that giving birth to a kid is the biggest responsiblity and now you have to think of him first.....what you are doing how you behave has impacts on him. So when you find your kids misbehaving look inside you .......is so that you are behaving very well and you respect values and your kids not? Noway........its highly imposible......
so we ourselves have to behave well then only our kids will behave so....and there will be no need to 'teach ' them good values they will aquire it easily seeing you, following you......

success

2007-03-16T20:30:00.000-07:00

success.........everybody is chasing the word, such fascinating word......
so what is success? success is getting aknowldged by the people, feeling proud to be what you have achieved, and yes sometimes money too........sometimes because not everybody's work can be count in money only, it can be anything like satisfaction of others who help, or acknowledgemnt by people,government or any organisation.....How one gets succeed? Is there any proven formula to succeed? Yes it is there.its hard work, your devotion towards your work, set an aim and steadily go towards it success will follow you, you should not have to wait for it...many want to succeed as early as possible, so they try few short cuts, but there is no short cut to it.....even though you feel you have got one, eventually it will not last long, if you want your success to last long then there is no skip to hard work and devotion........when you work hard for it you will have a satisfaction that you have 'achieved' it... and you have not "got it easily" and you 'deserve' and this feeling gives a moral boost. Look at the people you admire they have gone through many crisis in life and have suffered a lot in life, and then only you see their success...rather you only see their success not the hardwork or devotion. So whenver you see you idols try to stucy their story too, so you will know very well how many things you might have to giveup.......physical, mental, financial,.........everything.....so its alwasy a hard work and conteneous efforts for your 'AIM' success will follow.........you will not have to follow it...

Mirror

2007-03-14T22:56:00.000-07:00

Mirror………a true critic of you, how you look, how you are, it will tell you everything………A friend of mine told once to me if you have any doubts about the thing you are doing is right or wrong just stand in front of the mirror and ask him what you are going to do is right or wrong? He will give you the correct reply…….since when we are looking at the mirror you are with your both minds…..and most of all your inner soul which always tell you what is good and what is not…….. it is never wrong and will never tell you anything which is not good, it always keeps you alert of doing evil things, and reminds you of the values and moralities which you learned in the school, home, books…..he has all those good things in his pocket and he will make it available ot you when you need it most. Or rather when you have forgotten about all those ethics….. so it’s a real mentor of you which will never show you wrong path….. so whenever think is it right or wrong just look in the mirror and ask him………he will give you the correct reply and might save you from doing wrong things…….
The idea is we are so much used to doing whatever we like to do and we are forgetting what we have to do………so it reminds us those ‘have to do’ things…….

smile

2007-03-13T08:30:00.000-07:00

A smile........just a sweet smile....says a lot much more than a big chat, conversation.....suficient to make friends, desolve ur crises, forget your differences...... A smile of a baby makes u happeier than anything else, cos smile has only one meaning....friends!!!!! its such a positive stuff, it is much more effective than a big boring lecture right? In college too if a lecturer gives you a smile you become his fan.....isnt it? and those strict and so called rude professors who never give you smiles you always dislike them.....
Just think when you had a fight with your friend and next time when you met and smiled....he had to give it back... one has to....when you faought with your spouse and next morning (night better?) she smiled at you..hmmm gr8 isnt it? When you go home late, and see your mom's face smiling? you have to tell her only truth right? A smile will relieve you ....no matter how tense you are, it will make u relax....
You go on walk everyday on a perticular rout, you meet many people almost everyday, they are strangers to you........but meeting everyday they know you...and one fine day a smile will vanish all those distances and you be friends....If your face is always smiling, chances are you will make good friends, cos nobody likes those long faces.......and everybody loves smilly faces. And its a first step towards your success..........so keep smiling.....It doesnt take a penny but can make you millions.........you will have thousands of people who are freinds to you ....which is most important isnt it?

marriage

2007-03-13T02:41:00.000-07:00

many times we see many aged couples around us who r happily married for many yrs....i always wonder what might made have them so much years tegether successfully? cos when now we see almost everybody is complaining about the marriage and hw they suffer in marriage........Then what is the secret of "their marriage?"
I think one needs to know few things about marriage first of all there is no instant remedy for marriage, one has to give lotsa things like patience, devotion,love, caring, these all things u hv to put and then you will say ours is a hapy marriage........many of us think that they have been underestimated, or they are not getting share they deserve, they think they desrve much more than what they are getting, and they are suffering a lot.....his or her spouse is doing uinjustice with them........but have you ever thought of your spouse? He or she too has the same feelings for you.........neglected, underestimated........and so on. So whenver you think that your spouse is doing injustice, think in his point of view and secondly think that you are suffering because you might have done the same things in your last birth and she or he is taking revenge.........simple.........life will be much happier, If you have married somebody might suffer sometiems or has to take back foot at times, no harm ...dont do it always bt keep peace of your home do it sometimes, is a fact with more than in 90% marriges, cos marriage is first of al adjustment, so accept it...once you accept it, it will be easy to cope up with the situation....what happens we just not accepting the fact and think things will change if we react.....may be sometimes it will but not always and with everybody........aceepting the fact is the key to a successful married life, and you have to nurture it give only love, after few attempts you too will get it back so be positive.......so may be this the key of A HAPPILY MARRIED EVERY AFTER? oh my god m i getting too phylosophical? may yes but still one must learn it if he really wants to be a happily ever after.........

chat rooms

2007-03-10T21:49:00.000-08:00

After many days, rahter years i logged in to chat rooms, I was there just to tell people about AGLOCO. But i was so much disappointed to see the people there just chat sex.....nothing else, since my profile is F so many infact 90% of them would ask for cam, and when i try to tell them that i m here just to promote AGLOCO they would still ask rubbish dirty questions, its really irritating, why people are obssessed to sex so much.........they dont mind the age or anything just they want sex chats, when i tell them that i m 38 n u r just 19....that even wont stop them from asking me silly questions, its really horrible to think youngsters sick of sex.......there is nothing beyond it? why they can not share other things? anything constructive? or its a safest mode to release the vent? cos they dont hv identity there, nobody knows them so they can talk any thing? dont they feel guilty? or it has become a routine for them? nad why at such a young age of 18-19?
What they think of women only a sex toy? its just disgusting..... i just visited few times the chat rooms and got only few good guys, who were not like those others, thank god all are not same there.............

unhealthy lifestyle

2007-03-09T19:10:00.000-08:00

last week my hubby and i had gone to meet his couligue, he is just 35+ may be but having bakache, and ealier that he suffered of jaundice. We had gone him to drop his luggage which he had left the workplace, but he was not in a position to even drag the bag, he was paining so much, i felt very bad for him.....when i went to his home, his wife was there, but i felt her least interested welcoming us, she too looked depressed, I felt bad for more than the guy, she was suffering so much because of him, actually my hubby dropped him few weeks back from office place to his home since he was not in a situation he could even walk!! he had drunk a lot and had lost his control, so his luggage was still there which he brought now we had gone to drop the luggage....so when i entered the home it was not very healthy like, means a tention could be easily felt there, it was but natural i thought, since in which situatuion he was brought from the office........
such an early age he has developed so many deseases, how will he cope up with the life after 50+? Its such a scary situation. The changing life style of the youth today is alarming, they do drink a lot, late night parties, unhealthy eating habbits, tentions at home, office front and big money and easily available drugs....its all deading them towards such an alarming situation and at an alarming rate they are heading towrds it.........need to be done something for them.....the good thing with him is that he had visited Patanjali Yog Pith and now hopefully practicing yoga and good healthy diet, and lifestyle......... at least he realised the danger but there are many who are still sitting on volcanos.......who will save them?

Nishabda

2007-03-08T07:47:00.000-08:00

i saw the interview of Ramu and Amitabh Bachhan on a news channel on Nishabda....! a love story of an old man of 60 and a girl who is his daughter's friend...18 yrs old!!!! First thing comes in mind that whenver we meet kids they are just kids for us, n we treat them like kids. And especially for women youngsters are always their kids, she is a mother forever, as i think, I can not see a younger boy as my boyfriend or can not even thinkof "it". But then why men can feel sensual attraction for a young girl at any age? they dont feel guilty? whats going on in their mind? lust or just attraction? or a caring feeling? what? is he broken inside and trying to get up again with her help? seeing his courage in her? he is a defeated man and she is becoming his identity? his trimphm over the society where he was ignored? or before his wife who ignored her because of her other duties n kids? and she gave away his right of Husband.....n she was only a mother and not a woman of a man which is his basic need? Is he wrong or she who just took him, his rights as a husband for granted?
I agree when a person falls in love with a young girl, the sensual feeling might be there.........but before accepting the fact that he is in love with her, any sensible person must have churned his mind thousnads of time, for "whether it is right or not?" And when he feels strongly that he is right then he might have accepted for confessed the fact.........for me its a very much indevisual thing.......it should not happen but if it does there should have been very strong reasons for it........

what do i do whole day?

2007-03-07T21:12:00.000-08:00

what do i do the whole day, is the biggest question for others, cos i m a housewife, and for them house wives hv least works, if u ask me it depends on the lady, if she wants her house clean n neat, do all things properly, feed good food for the family, means if wants to be a perfect prfessional housewife, then she would be busy if she is like sleeping, lying on the bed whole day or chat chatting with other ladies........fine people are correct tht she has lots of leisure time, but for me i dont waste my time, in the morning whn i wake up @ 6 my day starts, then i hv to make tiffins for my son, thn i would read paper n hv tea till 8 ...i finish, then my clothes washing, untensils, dusting, and other household choreas i finish, thn i do yoga for 40 mints, thn hv my breakfast...... whn my maid comes i would hv been sitting on comp to surf, mylot, or read blog, or write on my blog, or search for something to improve my blog, i hv to learn many things regarding blog promtotion or its templates n all........so i do read other blogs regarding it, thn i hv my bath, worship god, it would take n hour or so.......so its almost 1pm......i hv to cook lunch ....so whn my son comes 2.30 pm i hv finished cooking and might be watching some tv.....watching CNBC for stock updates is my daily routine, i trade on stocks too........so bye 3pm we finish our lunch n other left over works.......i would hv rest for some time........thn again 4pm tea, then i would again sit on comp....by 6 pm i go fra a walk buy buy vegetables, grossary, fruits..... or shopping if any, i would be back by 7.30 thn again din n i watch a couple of regional tv serilas while cooking and dining.....8.30 normally read something or again some fone calls with friends...or sit on comp.........chit chat with neighbour whatever........my day ends around 10.30 ...i go to bed.
i hv few more jobs to do like to take my son to dentist, bills, banks, couirier....etc. so i m not at all free ....i hv kept myself very much busy. so whenver somebody asks me wht do u do whole day? i can nt actually answer exactly wht i do? bt still i m sure i m nt free as they think!!!!!!!1

aftermath of the theft

2007-02-06T23:38:00.000-08:00

as i lost mu purse and mobile, i again applied for the same sim card no, so i submitted the papers in a hutch shop, i was told that i will get my cell activated within an hour, it didnt, so i called the hutch office, they told they have not reached the documents, so again i called the hutch shop, he told he will look after it and let me know the position, he never called me back, i kept calling on his no but he didnt even recieve my call, as soon as he check my no. on his cell he disconnect it, so i kept calling their call centre no. everytime i got the same answer that we are looking after the issue and at earlist we will restart ur mobile....its been four days now and i m still calling up the same nos and getting the same replies...nobody is doing nothing...its just harrassment, and i m fed up of all these things, the thing is i have a balance of Rs.300 in my prepaid card so i dont wanna replace the card with any other company. and i hv got trapped with HUTCH!!!!!!!!!! its worst than a government office.

theft

2007-02-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

yesterday somebody stole my purse,mobile and debit card. i boarded on a crowded bus that day, 3-4 women of a working class too boarded the same stop, as its routine, i didnt bother for the women behind me. i didnt even think that women can be pickpocketers. after few minutes when i was looking to pay the conductor, i found my purse lost, i didnt understand anything, but i noticed the women behind me had gone!!!! it was shocking for me since it was the first insidence in my life that i have lost something like that and that deressing, it told me that i too can be careless!!!! and for a moment i lost my confidence, it was a horrible experience, how can i be so much careless?
one more thing comes in my mind, since last week only somebody stole my son's bicycle, and u can hear many such stories around of small small thefts, what is it indicating? i think its alarming towrds the big gap widening between the haves and dont haves.... and it will increase in the future, thats why the people who are not having money are tend to steal those things from others, and its very much dangerous, we must llok after this issue and do something regarding those people who are not having money, we must generate emplyment for those otherwise they will make our lives miserable.

army personels

2007-01-18T21:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday when I had gone to the railway station to see off my parents. I saw there a soldier and his wife. She also had come there to see him off. It was really touching moment, she had tears in her eyes. He was trying to convince her. What would have been going on in her mind? I was thinking, may there would be some problem in their house, or she might have been worried of the kids, or she might have had problem with her in laws? All the things kept coming in my mind, may be she is worried of his life which is a very much usual cause for all the military people. It was so much touching, then I felt how lucky I m though not staying all the time with my hubby but still he could come whenever I need him. Which is not possible for these army people.
We are safe here only because of them, and moreover because of the family and especially wives of them. Otherwise wise if everybody start thinking of not going in army what would happen? So its their sacrifice………we share almost all things together but for them its not possible, they could not even enjoy their kid’s first step or word, first day in school, many times they are so much in remote places where even cell phone also don’t reach. All these things kept coming in my mind, and making me feel guilty for my life and sympathetic for their life………SALUTE TO ALL THOSE SOLDIERS AND ARMY MEN!!!!!

un-noticed artists

2007-01-10T22:04:00.000-08:00

when yesterday i was wandering on the main streets of our city thats a main market area, i got attracted to a person who was sitting on the footpath, a bootpolish man, he was sketching something i was just curious about what is he doing? so at a moderate distance i stood and watched what he was doing, he was sketching a man's picture, i was so impressed, felt how we are unaware of the artists around us, there are so mnay of them who go un-noticed, very few of them get publicity and many of them die just unknown. we amny times see small small handycraffed things they so sometimes but so beautifully carved and how much time cunsuming!!but still we bargain and the poor people too give it away for a throw away price since they want money to full fill their daily needs. which is very much important for them. I feel very bad when people are bargaining for such things. We must give the real price. I dont say give anything they demand but atleast think over the time and its uniqueness and then decide to bargain. Never do injustice with the artisan.

young generation!!!

2007-01-07T18:43:00.000-08:00

It is a fashion to criticize younger generation, when we were young our elders used to criticize our behavior how we used to wear clothes our lifestyle and our eating habits, not respecting elders, and now when we have teenaged kids we too criticize their behavior we don’t like their habits of eating , their clothing style, it will go like that only when they will become parents they too will criticize their kids and younger genet ions. I think it should be stopped somewhere we should just observe them and try to accept that they too have rights to behave like their generation, but we must keenly watch their behavior and if they are making any big mistake try to point out it and how it will affect it their life and your responsibility ends here. Leave up to them the further actions. So they will be more responsible and would not make serious mistakes. And have respect for us too. Thus we are giving them a moderate liberty and responsibility which will not be a burden but a boost for their confidence.

express yourself?

2007-01-05T02:54:00.000-08:00

Is it ok to express your feelings before a friend? What happens sometimes that we are so much depress and want to express our feelings and we do but after the faze is gone we might feel regret that we should not have told all those things to anybody we told, cos it may damage the other person’s image. That’s what is going on in my mind many times. Why it happens? Many times I try not to talk anything about my spouse but sometimes it out of my tolerance and I tell about our fights and arguments to somebody but again the same thing happens I regret and feel bad that I told so many personal things to somebody who is not related to my spouse and might have damaged his image.
Is it really justified to express yourself against any situation or the persons very much close to you? A part of your life? Are you creating complications with the relationship? Or trying to release your pressure? Does it help to relax yourself? And is it ok to reveal your private things in front of a friend? Or to express it in a mirror or in front of a stranger is better?
I feel just keep mum and go for a walk look at other people just observe their feelings you might get answers to your problem. And you might find your problem small in front of others. So many times I just go for a walk may be weeping inside but feel much better after I come back home.

2007-01-02T21:08:00.000-08:00

Advertisements are part of our life. We have to take help of it right from small small things like if we want our kids to try new dish we tell them how its is tasty n yummy, then the chances are that they will try then if they like it they will demand more for that and thus they will add new favourite dish to their menue. Here we even dont realise and notice that we are advertising something!!!!Its an art which we unknownly using at home too. So many times we use this art, if we want to convince something to somebody like if we want to buy something or we need something passionately, we try to focus on the positive points of the thing and stress the need of the thing right? Its ADVERTISEMENT!!!
And when we any ad on TV or in Newspapers sometimes it catches our attention and clickes!!!! and some ads are so that we think rubbish or stupid!!!!! we just ignore the product and turn off the channel!! Thats the strength of an advertisement. They entertain us too. They are part of our lives ......at home n off home too.

teenagers

2006-12-26T23:06:00.000-08:00

When I see one of my friend's daughter who is very much stubborn and always argues with her mom means my friend. Whenever I see her I remember myself as a child. I too used to be like her only all the time arguments and not listening to my mom. Always used to try to do exactly opposite of she used tell me to do. And I would feel great and satisfied whenever I used to behave like this. But because of that I missed many things, and was very much stubborn. I used to what I felt was right but not what my mom used to tell. Now when I look back all those things I regret for how I behaved badly with my mom, who always tried to brought me up as a good person and so used to teach me lot of good things. We all do the same when we are teenagers we feel that we are always right and what our parents telling us, we took it as they are trying to force their opinions on us, we realize the fact that the things they tell was actually in our good favor !!!! But we all go through the same faze I guess.........now when I m a mother of a teenager I realize it much better!!!!!!!!!!

our pride!!

2006-12-23T21:23:00.000-08:00

Our blog is just like our kid. We creat it so we are very much sesitive about it, we pamper it and want others too to pamper it. Its true like every thing we creat nurture right? Right from rose plant we plant in our balcony. We are so much eager to see the first flower to it. And when it blows, we are so much happy we want to show it to others and they praise it!!!! Its true with all our things like our car,home,kids office, spouse,lover if you are a writer then your blog,story artical,poem whatever.........we want to get recognised by others. That our pride that we have something very special!!!!!!!!!! Its a boost for us to get t\recognised by the world and most of the people do things for that only PUBLICITY!!!!!!!

2006-12-20T19:35:00.000-08:00

she was not happy with her hubby. All the time arguemnets and fights. And not sexually too she was satisfied. I alwyas felt pity for her. A beautiful young girl starving. One day her x-boyfriend met her she was so much happy that she again started to live in a fairy land that he will now give her the joy n satisfaction for which she is far away. He used to see her sometimes. But was always cautious since she was not his now and was married. He always tried to make her happy with gifts. But she wanted something else. She asked him so after long dicussions and ifs n buts he was agreed for THAT!!!!but when they were alone he just cuddled her caressed her not the final act he could do!!!! It was touching what he said afterwards," If I do this I will never ever forgive myself and carry the burden that I decived my love and took disadvantage of her weakness. I will lose my faith in myself and my love.....which is I m proud of.!!!"

study

2006-12-18T21:58:00.000-08:00

study !!!!what does that mean to me? when I was a kid then I had an impression that I must learn the things in an attempt. Once I read it I must learn it. Reading many times means it shows that I m dump!!! insulting isnt it? so did never used to PRACTICE anything right from mathematics to spellings. And always relied on my MEMORY!!! Many times it did help me but visversa!!!! And when I realised what study is it was too late. And I had already had the loss!!!
So now I m so much keen that my son should STUDY hard n not like me .........taking it lightly.

a girl!

2006-12-14T04:42:00.000-08:00

When to day I was traveling in a city bus, a girl climbed in the bus and though it was not full loaded bus but still she didnt get seat to sit. And she was holding a folder. The condutor came to her she was looking for a change and holding the folder and opening the purse ...might have been looking difficult for her so she asked me to please hold the folder, fine it was not a big thing I did. After she took the tickets it was obvious that she should ask to give back the folder but she said,"If you dont mind can you hold it for a while?" What I culd have said? Nothing but do the favour!!!!!!! Because thats the gentleman's job!!! But I was surprised at her attitude. How she could ask for her luggage to hold somebody while its not that heavy. When I travel many times I see ladies holding their kids and not compaining at all!!!! But this girl was different. When she took the folder from me and moved further. She again caught another lady sitting beside her. And asked her the same....hold the folder!!!!!!! What type of a girl she was? Selfish? Lazy? Or taking granted for anybody?

positive attitude

2006-12-11T02:51:00.000-08:00

When today I went to my bank I wanted to file few impotrtant papers which tha bank had asked me to do so. I asked prior that my account is in another city so can I submitt those papers here in your account? The person said yes you can. So I went to the bank and asked a person ther ethat so n so. He seemed to be unaware of the rules I agree everybody doesnt know everything but one should say I will find out and tell you!! But he straightly said no this wont do. I was bit angry cause I had asked priorly and had came all the way here. And this person is now saying no.......so all my effrots in vein? I talked another person there he was a bit patient. And he was so much friendly that he said wait Mam I will check and do whatever is needful. I was satisfied with his attitude towards the customer. And he actually did everyting needed!! my work was done. And I was happy with the bank too.......which sometime back I was so much disappointed of the staff's attitude now satisfied with them!!!!! Thats the difference with a positive attitude!!!!!!!!!!!

sleep

2006-12-08T23:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday when I was passing by I saw a labourer sleeping in cart so much quietly. I was so much envious of him and I wondered how can a person sleep like that between so much of a traffic noise!! When we at home want very much quiet envirnment to sleep. Just a single knock or noise of a lift would break my sleep. Many times I would just beg for sleep and if I get up in between then ooophs it would be very much hard for me to sleep again. At least an hour I can not sleep. My sleep is not that sound. If somebody snoring beside then its worst night.
I always envy those people who go to sleep in seconds. How can they put all their worries and thoughts out of mind and sleep? When I go to sleep there are thousands of things crowding in my mind. A chain of thoughts dont let me sleep. Then I try to breath deep. But many times I fail and I just beg for sleep. But whnever I have this type of break sleep night then the other morning or day is bad. I have the feeling of not having good sleep and that perticular drowsyness is all over there.
I wish somebody comes and tells me the secret for a 100% sure goodnight sleep!!!!!!!!!!!

you n me

2006-12-07T04:20:00.000-08:00

My world is moving around you
when you praise me I m in the haven
when you tease me I m on the earth broken
I wonder why I cant think beyond you?

Every moment for you
Everything for you
Do you too do so?
I doubt rather I know you dont!!!!

Then why I only wandering around you ?
And getting hurt when you ditch me?
Is it love? or just a dependence?

tears

2006-12-06T21:12:00.000-08:00

Tears!!!! What they means to me? sorrow? defeat? pain? helplessness? such negative feelings or even possitive feelings like joy? pride? fulfillment too? Yea I think everything which I feel intensely .........tears are with me. Whenever I feel low or lost they accompany me. I dont have my control on my tears they just flow out. Sometimes I feel like catching them inside since I feel that they shwo my weakness. But its not in my hands. I wonder and envy too those people rather women who can control their tears. Why I cant? The just flow out like stubbern. Even when I am watching movies or TV whenever I see emotional scene my eyes would be full of tears then my son would look at me expecting I would start crying now. Its so shameful. But I am helpless I dont have control on my tears and they come out stubbernly.
Once I consulted my doctor too for this. He said its good for your health if you try to prevent them you could be in more trouble. So let it come out dont bother what others feel its your own very much honest feeling. From that day I atleast dont feel guilty of my tears as I used to feel it earlier. I let them flow out !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

space!!!!!

2006-12-05T03:01:00.000-08:00

Everybody needs his own space. When last week I was just looking at my son who was sitting computor, I just had a glance what he is doing and asked Jane has sent you scarp? Suddenly he said, "Mom please Thats what I dont like ....anybody watches my scrap or chat." I was wondered such a small kid too needs his privacy.
We all need our space no matter how close a friend is or your spouse too. Even our parents..... we have our own world which we want to keep with us only and that we enjoy. Its not like we are hidding something from others but the thing is we dont want to expose it to others.
When you friend is interested in your each and everything and commenting your everything. It becoming bit possesive....and that possesiveness I think we dont like. We have our own opinions about things and persons that we want to be very much ours isnt it? And when anybody interfering with it it becomes a burden. Which we dont like and want to throw it away. So we must respect other's privacy and keep a safe distance with others too so that we too could maintain our SPACE !!!!!!!!!!!!!

liars

2006-12-03T18:38:00.001-08:00

Why people lie? Does it give them more confidence? What encourages them to lie? Dont they understand that truth gives peace of mind. Liar can never stand before confidently. He has the guilt always inside him. But some people overcome of that gulit also and become so bold that they dont even notice that they are lying it becomes their habbit or rather skill to lie fluently. I really get amused of such people and I wonder how come they be like that? Doesnt their inner soul cry?
These people are very much dangerous cos they dont have the fear of self. How can you trust such people?

walking

2006-12-01T23:57:00.000-08:00

Everyday I go for a walk. Mostly in the evening cos then I am almost free since my son also goes to play so its the best time to go for a walk. And in the evening you can have lots of people around you. Walking is a great exercise since it refreshes your mind and body both. I can enjoy people while walking. Many things are happening around and you can enjoy it because you are walking..........people are talking about their family problems, sometimes dicussing business with other people or on mobile fones. Many types of people you meet around. Sometimes kids playing, group of collegeites debating!!!!! Women complaing of their husband or daughter in law.
Its really a boost just listen to people and many times you get solutions to your problems or you can feel that you problems is nothing before that. Sometimes when I am disturb I cant hear the crowd I just walk silently. But still feel relax with so many people around you. Liveliness of the crowd itself is a boost.
Sometimes you get chance to help others .....those whom you dont know.......that feeling gives you something ver soothing effect.
So to keep fit your mind and body just starting walking!!!!!!!